YOU'RE FIRED!!

No, they didn't say that exactly,  it was more like "I don't think we should move forward" and "it will be too difficult for the kids".

(For those of you who don't know me,  I have been a School Librarian for the past 11 years.  I even have my Masters Degree in Library Science and Information Technology (yes, official nerd degree) and I was a teacher for several years in Texas prior to finding my true calling) :)

I was looking forward to going back to work (at a nameless private school in the valley) and had been working off and on (online) during the two weeks while we were in Texas, updating the cataloging, searching out overdue books, lesson planning and responding to parents' and teachers' emails.   I had only been at this school for two weeks prior to my having to fly out to Texas and was looking forward to getting back working with kids and getting this library in tip top shape (which it needed). I had kept them updated quite regularly on our status and they seemed to be very supportive the whole time and very concerned.

I wanted to focus on something positive and get my mind off things.  Bobby was still working as much as he could between periods of rest.  I let them know I was committed to making the library fantastic.  I love being a librarian and I love working around kids.  They just warm my heart and make me happy! :)

After our appt. with COH, I explained that I was looking forward to coming back, but was not sure how much time off I would need to be with Bobby once he started treatment.   I let them know how supportive his family was and how much they were willing to help out by taking him to appointments etc... Unfortunately, this lack of stability "would be too difficult for the students."

In the end,  since I couldn't commit to a set schedule, THEY THOUGHT it would help me more (of course they didn't ask me what would help me most) to receive unemployment  (which is not even a 1/5 of my salary) and take care of my husband.  Do you think they would have said that to a man? hmmm

I want to take care of Bobby and be there for him, I love him with all my heart.  My husband has cancer and it is horrific. We are fortunate to have family and friends around to help be there for him as well.  I also know that I have to nurture my mental health as well in order to be the best partner/caretaker for him and working is part of that process for me.  This is not a sprint, this is a marathon and life does not stop.  Bills still need to get paid and there are a TON more of them now!!